You are not going to believe this.
I woke up yesterday morning unable to move my head. I can’t remember if this has happened since I have had this blog but occasionally, for about the last six years, I wake up unable to move my head with my neck muscles in awful, terribly painful spasm. It sometimes happens once a year, sometimes several times. It is excruciatingly painful but it is just one of the lovely gifts I get for being the proud owner of my body.
It was even better to wake up like this and find that it was a public holiday. We were forced to call a doctor to come to the house so that I could get some pain relief.
Today I attended the physio to get some help in dismantling the almighty muscle spasms that are making movement almost impossible. This is good. The physio was very helpful, I know that his help is really important. Still I was feeling pretty low.
I was considering taking a couple of days off of breastfeeding Grub so that I could take some serious drugs, including muscle relaxants, which are a huge help in this situation. I was feeling just too overwhelmed by the pain.
Next stop the doctors to get a proper prescription for pain-relief. Today, however, I was not able to see my regular doctor.
Today I saw a doctor who actually examined me and checked a number of things properly.
Today I saw a doctor who was shocked that it has been suggested to me that another year of “just waiting” to see if I get better, all the while taking this pain medication, is perfectly acceptable.
I saw a doctor who told me that it is not right that I am suffering like this. That this is not IN ANY WAY normal*. That we should investigate.That there may be something underlying many of my musculoskeletal problems.
I saw a doctor who has recommended a battery of tests including x-rays and blood tests.
She took my pain seriously. She believes that, even if we don’t find a solution in the first round of tests, I should still probably see a rheumatologist who may have even more ideas as to what is up with my bod.
I feel elated. The names of some scary sounding medical conditions were thrown around. That should be a bad thing but I was almost brought to tears with relief.
Instead of being told just to “manage it” and that “it should get better in time” someone wants to take a real look at what’s going on. At the whole picture.
There is no guarantee of a solution but knowing that someone is willing to look for one is the most empowering feeling.
I am in agony but filled with hope.
*Sounds obvious but when no health professional will acknowledge just how out-of-order it is, it’s a huge relief to have someone say this.